Have you ever known that you were in a situation that maybe wasn’t the best for you but you didn’t quite feel like you knew the best thing to do? Well I definitely have. Many, many times. But.. in particular, this past week I had a lot on my mind and couldn’t ever seem to find the right answer.
When I got to college here at ECU, I was meeting a ton of people and in the midst of all this meeting, I met a guy named Eric. We became friends and hung out a few times and eventually starting liking each other. He wasn’t a bad guy, but wasn’t a Christian either. I talked to him about church and invited him to our Thursday night Bible studies and did everything that I could to make myself feel like I was doing the right thing. But, what I didn’t realize at first was that my mind starting focusing more on the two of us, and less on God.
I’m not telling all of you girls this to just bore you with my “love life,” but I think God taught me something recently that opened my eyes a little bit, and hopefully it can do the same for you.
Once I realized that I was letting my relationship take over some of my time that I should have been giving to God, I knew that I should probably do something different. But the truth is… I wasn’t sure if I wanted to. I was comfortable with where I was I was still giving some of my time to God, so I thought that would be enough. And as I’m sure you know already… it wasn’t enough.
I finally woke up really early one morning and got ready and spent some time alone with God watching the sun rise. I finally talked to Him about everything and admitted that I needed His help. I couldn’t figure out the right decision and follow through with it on my own. I NEEDED GOD, and I finally let myself realize it. I needed wisdom, strength, and most of all the ability to accept whatever God had planned for me, so that’s what I asked for.
If you’ve ever had a big problem and handed it to God instead of trying to bear it all on your own, then I’m sure you know the peace and relief I was already feeling just by giving it to God. It literally amazed me at the power that God was showing to me. But.. I asked for God to do whatever was best for me and that’s exactly what He began to do. Eric got busy and we stopped talking as much and every time we made plans, it never failed that they would fall through for whatever reason.
I’d love to say I looked at the whole thing as a blessing because I knew it was God’s plan… but I would be lying to myself and to you if I said that. I was upset and just last night, as our plans were falling through yet again, we decided to end the relationship between us. At first I was really upset, as I’m sure we all are when those crazy boys get to us. 😉 But as an hour passed, I began feeling an amazing peace that I hadn’t been feeling. God did what was best for me and He helped me accept it, just like I asked. To say the least, I was in awe of God’s power.
So what I want all of you to know is that no matter what situation you’re in and whatever problems you are facing, TAKE THEM TO GOD. Let Him lead your life. I can tell you from first-hand experience that He knows much more about what He’s doing than we do. Lean on God and talk to Him about anything and everything. He will get you through it and even when you really don’t want to change things, He knows best and He’ll take care of you and give you His peace.
In Ephesians 3:20, Paul wrote “Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think…to Him be glory..” His power is beyond what we can comprehend, but it’s there and living and He is ready to do whatever you need if you’ll just let Him.
Philippians 4:6-7 tells us exactly what I have been learning this past week. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.“
Talk to God and give all your troubles to Him. Don’t wait around and make it harder on yourself. God is there and He wants to help. It’s not always easy admitting the weaknesses in my own spiritual life, but if anything I have gone through can ever help you, I’ll gladly admit my hard-learned lessons. Because just like Paul, I’m learning slowly that Gods power is made perfect in my weakness and that when I’m weak and have to lean on God for support, it’s at those times that I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12) I love all of you and I’m praying that you, too, can depend on God through everything. 🙂 Keep up the work!