I’ve written before about how hard it was to make all new friends when I got to college. However, after spending almost a full school year here, I know that I have made some of the best friendships I’ll ever have in my life. This brings me to the point of this article though.
Harding reeeeeally pushes their overseas study abroad programs. It seems like almost everyone spends a semester abroad, usually either fall or spring of their sophomore year. I thought about signing up for a semester at first, but because I’m a science and Spanish double major (as of this past Tuesday..yay for making decisions!!) and the abroad campuses only offer certain courses, I decided it would be better for my schedule to just stay in Searcy. I have a TON of friends going abroad next year though. Don’t get me wrong, I am soooo excited for them! I know they are going to have amazing experiences and I’m so glad they get this opportunity.
However, recently it started to hit me how much I am going to miss my friends when they are abroad. Technology is crazy now and I know I can keep in touch to some extent, but it will be very limited. Satan really starting pulling at my heart and I began to develop a bitter attitude about the situation, thinking that I would lose my best friends. I began to worry that these friends that I had finally gotten really close with would just be torn out of my life and I would end up back where I started in August. I was worried that they would all get close with the group they traveled with and basically forget about me. I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t talk to any of them about it; of course they would say the usual response- “No that would never happen!” or “We’ll keep in touch, things will be the same!” Was I supposed to just go ahead and start withdrawing myself from them now so that it wouldn’t be so bad next year?
Then one day, the worries finally filled my head and my heart more than I could handle. I was confused and upset and basically felt like there was nothing I could do. Then, as I walking to my ten o’clock class, I realized that I had been neglecting the one person who I really needed to talk to about it- God. I finally just prayed and poured out my heart to Him. I told Him everything I had been feeling and I asked that He would just guide me and show me that He would use everything for His glory. I asked Him to help me seek comfort in Him.
His answer came so quickly. That night, I ended up talking to my suite mate until two in the morning and I told her everything. Turns out, she had been thinking some of the same things. Neither of us had a solution, but somehow, in a way that only God can make happen, we both found incredible comfort in simply talking and crying and just sharing our burdens with each other. Before we finally went to bed, we prayed together and I know that God was right there listening.
I have no doubt that He used our conversation that night to show me that He’s there and that I can always turn to Him, no matter what. Once I finally gave my problem over to God, He was so quick to remind me how much He loves me! I really cannot express the beauty of God’s unconditional love and amazing power! 2 Corinthians 12:9 “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
As if that wasn’t enough, the next day, an upperclassmen that I really look up to randomly texted me asking if I was spending a semester abroad, and when I told her no, she replied, “Great! That means we will get to hang out a lot during my senior year!” I know this was just a simple text message, but I can’t help but think it was God’s little reminder that He is going to use me every day of my life, no matter what country I’m in. Sometimes my plans fall apart, but I know that God has the ultimate plan and He is always watching over me! Joshua 1:9 “…do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”